I told a lie today....It was a need thing...I felt...But all day I have felt bad...No really....I feel like it is going to come back to bite me in the butt!
more to come...
OK So I feel nervous about posting this....Where I live is small and people know people. And you never know who really reads your blog and well who knows who...and who is related to who and read the blog story to who....SO ITS Scary...so I have been doubting the fact that I should post this. But I feel bad...and this is part of my repentance process.....So here I confess.
So the last 2 days I have appointments in town....approximately 12 miles away. MY days are busy when I squish everything but..I purposely do this so I don't have to find someone to watch Brodie and Hannah.....They are at preschool and need to be picked up @ 11 am SHARP!!! And I just take Essie with me. On Monday everything was running late and I had to call the preschool and say that I was running late and that I would be there ASAP.
(so the deal with preschool pick up is that they run an AM and a PM class. with only a half in hour in between. They need to set up eat and regroup before the next class. So I really try to respect that fact....)
So the whole way to the preschool I was "Utah/Hell normal driving" IE speeding.... and the whole way I thought about getting pulled over and ruining our Christmas...and what I would say to the officer if it happened....
I made it to the preschool about 10 Min's late.
On Tuesday I had another Dr.s appointment which ran VERY late. Plus they wanted me to wait and do some blood work.....(Gestational diabetes problems, so I had too stay) by the time I left the office it was 11:03....CRAP....so I went to go call and my cell was dead. Panicked I started to speed home....again....
(Wait the part I forgot was.....on the way there I had seen a State Police officer...sitting and waiting to catch speeders....)
So I was fully aware once I hit the highway that (this nice, kind, caring) State police man might be waiting on me....so I was very diligent in looking for him or any sight of him......I made it all of the way to my exit and thought thank goodness I made it! When I saw the lights in my rear mirror.....and he was coming fast....I pulled over cause I already knew that he was after me.... He came up to the window and said....
" Hello, I am officer Friendly (names have been withheld for because....) and I clocked you doing 79 in a 65. " HE DID NOT Look impressed.
Now knowing that he was a State police officer....I started to ball! They always ticket you....
Balling I said,
" I know I was totally speeding, it was totally my fault, But I was rushing to my sons preschool because his teacher called and said that he fell and hurt his arm......I am really sorry I was just really worried about him...." and I handed him my DL.
NOTE: OK this was totally wrong.....But it just flowed out of my mouth... I thought about the fact that "Mommy just ruined Christmas" and Mike was gonna be pissed! and we are already poor!!!! and it was sorta true except for the whole arm part....and I have only had 2 tickets ever and I don't normally speed!!!
I SHOULD NOT TRY TO JUSTIFY!!!!....IT WAS VERY, VERY WRONG AND I HAVE FELT SO GUILTY....REALLY......
This (sweet kind gentle caring) officer got a look of compassion on his face...and said "when I pull people over I always give tickets....where is your sons preschool?"
I said "right here in Rigby" Balling...hardly understandable...
Then he said "whats the name of the school?"
I said the name..... Hoping now that he does not remember.....
and he said...."OK Miss I am going to let you off with a warning.....this time...But just know that you would not be able to help your son, if you die out here speeding"
Of course I started to ball harder.....it was such a nice thing to do and I could really see him feeling bad for me....and at this point I wanted to say.....
"really officer....My son didn't hurt his arm....I am just really late and this is my second day....being late....I am pregnant and just really emotional and some say a little crazy.....I agree... I shouldn't have lied.....But this ticket is probably gonna be the same cost as our Christmas...Please don't make Mommy ruin Christmas....."
BUT I was mums...I said nothing besides... a non understandable thank you....and I drove away.....I had a feeling of relief and extreme guilt until the paranoia set in......
Maybe he will call the school???? Maybe I will see him at the store and Big mouth Hannah will say " he never hurt his arm".......Maybe he will come to police officer day at school????
This is what pregnancy/paranoia do to you...Its not pretty!!
For the last 2 days I have felt bad and paranoid.....Mike says I must go to the bishop and confess......I have decided that I would like to be Catholic.....I am NOT going to speed to get to Preschool anymore!
And Dear Officer Friendly,
I am really sorry about speeding...But more for the fact of lying..... I should not have done what I did....you did such a nice thing and I took advantage of my pouty brown eyes and big fat round belly......Please don't arrest me.....I will do community service....You know like... buy a family/child a gift off the Walmart tree....whatever you want..........You have taught me a lesson I will not speed on the highway anymore! Thank you for your kindness....AND BTW Please don't tell Karma where I am......
Sincerely,
Crazy Pregnant speeding Lier....
Tuesday, November 11, 2008
The lie I told....
Wednesday, November 5, 2008
Anatomy lessons in sacrament....
A few weekends ago we went to the DI looking for fun junk.....Ie...canning things....canning jars..... and every time we go I always look in the book section for my kids. Well, this time I found a neat book for Gracie. Lately she has been on this kick about being a Dr., she is not quite sure what kinda Dr. But she says "one that helps everybody" and that is ok with me!
The book that I found was a kids Human Anatomy... A book with pictures of the bones, mussels, and blood vessels. OF EACH....A MAN AND A WOMEN....Grace has been in love with reading this book and had shown all of the other kids. They sit down and read it for an hour or so.... It was a great $1 investment...so that next Sunday. I had my bag of books and church appropriate materials. Grace said "can I take my bone book?" at first I thought no...its not really church appropriate....But then I thought of the hours of relief (IE..Quiet) that I had received from this book and said Yes.
Our ward is crowded....I mean....if you don't get there at least 10-15 Min's early you will be forced to sit exile or in other words....in the gym, in the hard metal chairs. Where my kids seems to think that HF can't see them....and they think their in the gym....so they can try to sneak away and play basketball or something. ( it has something to do with all of the other kids that are running around, whole other subject) Plus the noise level is to high in the back....and you can't hear anything. So I am a big pusher to get there early enough to grab a row in the front middle.....
Any who...this Sunday we had been running a little late (5 Min's early) and we slid on the bench with a wife of a member of the bishopric.....(which I prefer not to...nothing to do with her...I just didn't want her to see us beat our children to make them behave) She happens to also be Hannah's teacher. So I am sure that she currently questions or family. Sacrament was going good....everyone was being quiet and behaving rather well.....
When Hannah came over and asked
"can I see the bone book?"
"sure" and I thought nothing of it.....
She went back to her seat and sat quietly looking at the pictures and such.....And I thought to myself I am bringing that book every Sunday!
About 5 Min's later I noticed that Hannah had scooted up to her primary teacher and was showing her the "BONE BOOK" But I noticed that this nice kind bishopric wife had a look of shock and ??? horror on her face.....So I glanced down to she what she was looking at....
It was a page that I must of over looked in this kid anantomy book....The male anatomy....Hannah was pointing out to this nice kind lady....
In her words, "The boy Junky".....
OK REALLY AT THIS POINT WHAT DO YOU DO?????
I leaned over to Hannah and said,
"can I see what's on the next page????"
Nice kind lady now looking away in disgust and disbelief......( I am sure looking for someone to tell what horrifing thing just happened to her)
Hannah informed me that she was not yet done showing her teacher.......
I informed her that she in fact was done and that she should turn the page now.
So she did ( with fear in her eyes).....and I was happy....and she returned to reading quietly....Which made me happier....
and a few seconds later she grabbed my shirt and said,
"look mommy its the girls Junky with a baby inside"
Another page that I must of over looked.....
At this point I just decided whatever......she has one and she is better off to know what is what.....Right????
But I will not be bringing that book to sacrament again....
When will it drop....
I was feeling ok yesterday... I went down and voted. I guess I had hope and faith that the US was not really that stupid....I found the perfect picture to show how I am feeling today....
You have to wonder when things are going to fall? Or as this picture reads...A giant ass is gonna fall on the US.....your tiny and tied to it with a leash.
Saturday, November 1, 2008
Trunk or Treat
Here is Dorthy.....I mean Hannah
Here is our "clownish" scarecrow Brodie.....It is very hard to put makeup on a 3 year old when he is trying to watch sponge bob...and can't set still for more than 5 secs. 
Here is Essie as the cowardly Lion......
Every year our street does a Trunk or treat around the circle. Its nice cause they get more candy in less time.! We had a good turn out this year. It is so nice to see people from your community...Even childless people get out and pass out candy! 
We hit the mother load of Candy this year.....This picture doesn't show its extremeness! I am sure it will be gone soon...
